Monday, January 18, 2010

Made it through the first night!

Well...Matt's gone. And it sucked. End of story. I thought I was doing a pretty good job of holding everything together, but the closer we got to the airport...the more I started to lose it. When we pulled up to drop him off, I just full-out started sobbing. Gah. It is never fun to say goodbye to the person you love more than anything...and even less fun when you have no idea when you'll see them again.

BUT. My mother-in-law drove to the airport, and then we engaged in some good healthy retail therapy plus Cheesecake Factory, and that was nice. Going to bed last night was hard...I felt really exhausted. d.a.r. told me I should take some Tylenol PM but to be honest, I was so tired I just didn't think that I would need it. Then I got in bed...and was wide awake. For awhile. I ended up popping one Tylenol PM and had a great night of sleep.

The good news? Today is a new day! And, like d.a.r. told me, yesterday was the hardest, and I'll never have to do that again. Thank goodness! I talked to Matt last night when he was getting settled in his barracks room (joy) at Benning, and we've texted a bit today. It is a good transition to be able to still talk to him!

Anyway. For some reason I haven't felt much like blogging or reading blogs, which is silly and I'm sure I'll snap out of that quickly. So in the meantime, I just wanted to say THANK YOU. I received so many emails/texts/tweets/calls yesterday from so many people - the majority of which were blog friends. I can't tell you how much all of that means to me. It feels so good to have such a strong support network of friends! So thank you, so so much. I wish we all lived in the same place so we could go out for happy hour tonight! :)

16 comments:

Brittany Ann said...

My husband is gone for two weeks to say good bye to out-of-town family before he leaves for his 3 months of military training.

And I'm right there with you.

I'm way more upset than I thought I'd be...all in thoughts of, "if i'm this lonely now, how will I be for the 3 month shifts for the next 6 years of our lives???"

And I'm exhausted but can't sleep. No fun!

Still, reading this, I need to snap out of it. I could have it a lot worse. He could have much longer deployments than 3 months on, 3 months off. I am definitely tearing up thinking of you! I'm so sorry!

How long is his deployment?

Thinking of you!

anonymous prep said...

I can't even imagine how hard this must be -- hopefully it will get easier. Sending good thoughts your way. :)

bianca said...

I'm glad you made it through the first night! It's not silly that you haven't felt like blogging or reading blogs lately - it is completely understandable. Let us know if you need anything!

Patience said...

I hope with everyday it gets a little easier. I am sad for you.

Jennifer said...

I'm glad to hear you're doing okay. I can't even imagine how hard it must be! Now just try remember that every day is one day closer to his return!

brown eyed girl said...

BIG HUGS your way, sweets!!

Jackie said...

hugs!!!

Jenn said...

dude - I'm just putting this out there. iChat happy hour. we have webcams. and alcohol. think about it. :)

Erin said...

Wow. Rip my heart out, why dontcha! D is right, though - you NEVER have to do that again...and all my military wife friends always end up surprised by how well they do during a deloyment. Think how smokin' hot and baby-ready you'll be when he gets back! Hugs!

Becky said...

I was thinking of you! Hopefully this time will just fly by!

kd said...

The first day IS the hardest. And the Tylenol PM trick is so true. I used it for the first 3 nights of this one, I think.

I know you're going to do great, but nonetheless, it just freaking sucks!

Hang in there--

Kayla said...

It seems like you've made it through the hardest part. Though, I have never had to be without my husband, I cannot say I know how you feel. I can say that we are here for you and I hope that this time without him flies by quickly! It would be so much fun if we could all get together! Maybe someday..... What state do you live in again??

Crazy Shenanigans said...

I'm glad to hear you made it through the first night. You can do it! That's great you've been able to talk to him some today!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

thinking about you girl... i don't even know how you military wives do it. i've had my parents gone and my brother gone, but i can't even imagine having my other half... you're in my thoughts and prayers.

d.a.r. said...

So yeah, I haven't been commenting on blogs at all. And I feel like an ass because I should have commented on this if I was to comment on anything. I stink.

At least I can entertain you with snarky emails?

Hang in there, first night/day is over!!!

Lucky in Love said...

Just wanted to say that I love you :) Here if you need anything!